7 Sayings On Cessation


1. After everything that I have done for you.

How can you leave me after everything that I have done for you? I gave you the world and now you have thrown back in my face. I of course only gave you everything because I wanted something from you. I did not give you my all because I loved you. I gave you so much because I wanted everything from you and I was so close to taking everything from you. Now that you are trying to escape me, you are suggesting that I have failed and that I am not brilliant nor magnificent and I cannot stand for that to be the case. I want to blackmail you into staying. All that I gave you were not gifts, they were bribes and now it is time for you to earn them, so you had better damn well stay.

2. But we belong together.

We do belong together because I own you. I bought you with my false affection and dishonest love. I attached you to me and bound you in chains that are long and thick and you dare try to cast off those shackles. I do not know where you end and I begin. You thought that was romantic the first time I told it you but I was actually telling you a rare truth. You and I are one because you are subsumed into what I am, I consume you, I envelope you and I control you. You cannot walk away from me now because we are too enmeshed, too attached and too conjoined. You are tearing me in half. There is no you. You gave that up when you allowed yourself to be drawn towards me and bound so tight to me that you became part of me. What has been joined together can now not be undone.

3. I will die without you.

You cannot leave me because if you do you shall surely tear my poor heart from out of me. That is suitably dramatic and is designed to pull on your heartstrings even though I am telling you that this is how brutal and heartless you are in trying to end our relationship. I cannot allow this to happen because I have not finished my seduction of your replacement and if you go now you will take away my precious fuel before the new source has come online. This will leave me panicked, chaotic and driven into a frenzy in order to gather fuel from other sources, if I am able to that is. If I cannot I will no longer exist and it is all because of your selfish, wicked behaviour. How can you cut me down like this? How can you slay me in such a callous fashion? Heartless harpy, seditious slattern and callous crone that you are.

4. I cannot help what I do.

You cannot leave me just because of what I have done and what I have not done. How is that fair? I thought you were a fair person, open-minded and caring, are you not? I doubt it now as you are intent from getting away from me and all because of the way I have treated you. Look I am sorry, really I am, but I cannot help it. You make me that way with the things that you do. No, I am not trying to push the blame on to you, I am explaining it to you if you would at least listen to me. How can I explain that it is just something that happens when you are walking away from me? I never intended for it to happen you know, it just happens and you should be the one apologising to me because you make me lose my temper with your control and the games you play,you are doing it now you fucking bitch, I hate you, do you hear me? I hate you. It is your fault. Not mine. I can’t help it.

5. Why do you want to spoil everything?

I really do not understand you at times. I mean, what do you have to complain about? We live in a beautiful house, you have an expensive car, a platinum Amex and I let you do whatever you want but still it is never enough is it? Yes, I know I sometimes i have to lay down the law but if I didn’t you would spend us out of existence. Do you know how hard I have had to work to build all of this? It doesn’t just spring up overnight and I did it for us. You have used me. I welcome you into my life and this is how you repay me by spoiling our idyllic life. You would be nothing without me, do you know that? You have a fantastic life, all provided by me, there are hundreds of other women who would give their right arm to be with someone like me and you are going to throw it all away and leave. I knew there was something not right with you, you need help,you are insane. Ask anyone and they will agree with me.

6. Who will help me now?

You cannot leave me, who else is going to help me? I have kept you here under figurative lock and key, a virtual prisoner in your own home because not only do I need you to fuel me but I need you to mother me. That was the agreement when we got together. I would feed you false love and fraudulent gratitude and in return you would cook for me, clean this house, wash my clothes, cut my toenails and wash my hair. You would wait on me hand and foot and be at my beck and call. I cannot do all of these things on my own and I haven’t got the energy to find someone at such notice with you leaving. You are such an awful person, to leave me like this, especially when I am ill. Who on earth does that to someone? You should think of others and not just yourself you selfish cow.

7. Don’t go, I will change. I promise.

You really are going to go aren’t you? Good Lord, I didn’t see that coming. I thought you were good for another six months of abuse and mistreatment before you somehow plucked up the courage to try and escape me. I don’t like to admit it but you have caught me out and now I am concerned, I can feel the control slipping away from me and I have to get it back, I have to stop you. A crack around the face has worked in the past but something in your eyes tells me that even giving you a good hiding won’t stop you going, even if you have to crawl out of that front door. I know, I will throw myself on your mercy. You will like that. You have always been trying to save me, well here is your chance. I will change. I will get help. Just please do not go. Of course I mean it. I will do anything to stop you going and taking my precious fuel away from me and making me look a fool in front of all my adoring admirers. I cannot have that happen so yes, I will get some treatment, I know I have done wrong and this time, more than ever, I will change. I swear it on the lives of anyone who springs to mind so it seems like I really mean it. Of course I don’t, why should I change? The only thing that will change is my primary source of fuel but that is not ready yet so you need to stay. Please. I will change. Don’t go.

22 thoughts on “7 Sayings On Cessation

  1. lisbeth says:

    Its all a facade that they all are so desperately trying to maintain.

  2. Sandra says:

    Hi, Perse.

    Yours seems to be upper echelon.

    My midranger was never able to impact large groups so he focuses on being “a normal guy” and “a good everyman”. Twenty year marriage, compliant IPPS,

    I’m only DSL with no agenda to continue.

    1. Sandra says:


    2. Sandra,

      I think I had what I call a MRN….with delusions of greater.
      Mine did commit physical violence a couple times.

      He had to have a damn entourage!!! Like he was somebody important!

      But, frankly, I used to be so impressed that he could be on friendly terms with everyone. from show biz folks to the local gangsters. Any place we were at, it seemed like there was a 50/50 chance we would end up seeing somebody he knew. Even at a cafe in the middle of the desert in the middle of the night! LOL

      I think mine NEEDED to have ALL the people he interacted with.

      1. Sandra says:

        The best part of HG’s blog, apart from the obviously empowering insight, is the opportunity to validate and support our empathic peers.

        Sometimes it gets rowdy and tense in here but I find HG sorts it well enough.

        The laughs get me through my pain.

        Thank you guys for that.

        I need to go rethink my N/C regime now 🙁

  3. Sandra says:

    It is.

    It’s exhausting work managing facade and seducing targets when you’re a Mid ranger with limited resources.

    Even the prospect of getting Hind Tit fuel off me is preferable to collapse.

    1. Windstorm2 says:

      Love your phrase, “hind tit fuel!” Going to have to remember that one.

    2. Oh Sandra,
      “Hind tit fuel”
      You’re cracking me up!!

      Yeah, it’s a keeper.

  4. I have heard all of these……….. But!!!!!!!!

    I am angry that I never got the discard!!!
    I’ll bet he discarded me in mind every time he walked out the door on his way to see one of the DLSs.

    But he wouldn’t put me down and leave me alone!!!!
    Even when the fuel was pitiful!!!!!
    Even when he was saying all this!!
    Even when the fuel was cut off!!!

    I am NOT irreplaceable!!!

    Lazy Mother F**cker!!!!
    Promote somebody and let me get on with my life!!!!!

    Don’t have to worry bout that one, now.
    Don’t want another…

    (No, I don’t actually wish this on somebody else, but when needs must…)

    1. Sandra says:

      Same same same Perse. Never experienced the agony of a cruel discard but I don’t feel my lot is much better.

      He is resolute in denying me closure.

      I’ve come to believe his matrix is too small (HA!) to replace me with anything more than porn and tertiary sources. He’s reliably hung up on his facade and since I know all his flaws the mask can relax and he can just feed. That’s how lazy and entitled he is.

      1. Windstorm2 says:

        “and since I know all his flaws the mask can relax and he can just feed.”

        Very disturbing mental image! 😳

      2. Sandra,
        Mine had no excuses like a small matrix. He had an DLS, but she would have stuck out like a sore thumb if he tried to install her as IPPS. He had a statewide reputation, and tertiary all over the country. He was too invested in his facade, too. He loved to point out the longevity and “success” of his marriage, as his proof of “good traits”, specifically fidelity and loyalty. LOL!

  5. Maeven Belle says:

    My N tried to convince me to stay telling me that I would get permanent alimony if I stayed married to him for another 5 years. I was astonished and appalled at the bargaining that was occurring. After reading this article, it all makes sense.

    1. Maeven Belle,

      I hope you have a good knowledge of your shared finances and are able to protect them. Don’t believe a word of it, even if you have it in writing. I would say contact a lawyer NOW, and go over with them the areas that your protection of finances is weak. DO NOT TRUST THE NARC. We had assets, and, cash and I thought I held power over them and I was very mistaken. My narc husband robbed me of every penny and put me in debt, AS HE WAS DYING, HE WAS LYING!!

      No conscience, no remorse.

      There was somebody(s) out there that he was still trying to impress as the generous nice guy he always tried to appear to be. It didn’t matter about me, because I was just another possession to him.

      Protect yourself,


      1. Maeven Belle says:

        Thanks, Perse – I’m out now, it’s been 2 1/2 years since the divorce. After reading some of the blog, I realize I got off okay – timing in life is everything. Because we have two small children together, I’ve been seeking out information on how to deal with the aftermath (which is still unfolding despite the fact that he’s already installed a shiny new wife 15 years his junior and is expecting a baby). This blog has been incredibly enlightening.

        1. Maeven Belle,

          Good for you!

          HGs blog is the best place for information on dealing with Narcissist. The writing on this blog is more direct and to the point, and best of all, useful. There are articles and comments specifically on dealing with them when you can’t do complete no contact. This one is good if you haven’t already read it:


          Of course, the commenters share their experiences,too. About the only thing you don’t get here that could be helpful is formal therapy. But ranting here helps!


  6. Giulia says:

    “I pray every day for You, for us”
    Yeah…..do that….down on your knees….begging…. I love it

    1. Giulia says:

      It turns me on….

  7. Twilight says:

    Love taught in action

  8. angela says:

    Exactly..number 1..3…5…6…exactly…
    No more in my life……N….

  9. Momolivas@gmail.com says:

    Is this what really goes thru your mind as you are trying to win the spouse back, or having an argument, or anytime you speak are you really telling yourself this..

    1. After everything that I have done for you. How can you leave me after everything that I have done for you? I gave you the world and now you have thrown back in my face. I of course only gave you everything because I wanted something from you. I did not give you my all because I loved you. I gave you so much because I wanted everything from you and I was so close to taking everything from you. [ 1,228 more word ]


  10. Windstorm2 says:

    Disturbing, yet pathetic. Like a totally selfish spoiled child. But unfortunately eerily accurate.

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